WEEK 96 - POST 4
Friday late afternoon. I just submitted two grant applications.
(I had to laugh as I sent information about a possible grant to a friend/acquaintance and she did say thanks but mostly the message was loaded with "oh man - now I have to work this weekend - let me know if you know of any volunteer grant writers." (Like it was my fault. UGH.) What kills me about this attitude is the lack of gratitude for these opportunities and also the ability to pass up on them if they DO exhaust you. UGH. (If you don't want to write the grant. Don't.) But what the bigger issue here is that I don't want her attitude to damper my view of life - I want her negative energy just to roll off me and not stick - I get stuck judging the other person. Yuck. I need to figure out what I have to let go of so that I can just kind of hear it, wish her well and then just get on with my GRATITUDE, ABUNDANCE & RADIANCE MAKING!!)
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I feel much lighter because:
- two grant applications are in - the next deadline is end of April (4 full weeks away)
- I won't be meeting up with the NFP collaborator until late in the 3rd week
- I also finished another chapter of my fiction novel and will read my C.P.'s work this weekend
- Now I can get back to my biz full time - I have two and a half weeks for focusing on MY BIZ
(Those weeks where I have to do both I feel bogged down and I haven't been able to prioritize me and my health - UGH)
- I'm going away right after the next two grants are submitted (end of April) and I'm making sure I don't take on too much until mid-May.
(I'll have one last grant application due mid-May and want to get more solopreneur biz work done so I will not take back my part-time job until that submission is in.)
Yippeee!!! It's Friday and this month has gone super well!! It's really incredible to see what having more time for my biz can do!!! I really am excited (kind of hope that the grants don't get funded so I can continue on this full time... hmmmm....)
I found this woman at HSHBBiz and I really like the way she sees her business. You can really tell she has her stuff together and isn't there to be coddled or looking for attention or being needy. She also talks to the two founders of the group as if they are friends and colleagues and not MENTORS. She is super appreciative but you can see that she sees herself as their equal. And not at all uncomfortable that she is a student - that not knowing something is OK (no shame). I know that I'm getting there. I know that the need to be "SEEN" is not as strong as before. But I also still have difficulty seeing myself as a business woman. I really want to feel more confident (even in my failures).
(It's great to see this and know what I want.) xo
FINAL NOTE HERE - If I do have more time, I do find that I get bogged down with social media. And I need to really watch that. Not only is it NOT the best use of my time (especially now as I still don't have a newsletter, etc) but also because it can drag down my energy (by watching those numbers that I can't really control.)
Let's do better next week!!!
xo
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