the part-time job

WEEK 117 - POST 3

One day later and it's like molasses here. 

As soon as I turned my focus onto the overdue audits, everything has ground to a stop.  I just don't want to do this work.  I'm happy to go and chat with people but I don't want to write and summarize.  Perhaps it is also because of all the "succession planning" talking and negative energy around the projects this year (people who disagree at their local spots).

I don't know what it is but all I know is that it's almost 2 pm and I have basically been procrastinating all day.

I did some EFT tapping.

I watched some TV.

I got away from the computer.

But I am craving carbs (which I'm eating yikes).

And I won't go out "until it's done".

I should have gone out to do the work in a coffee shop today - I think that would help - especially with the stuff I DON'T want to do (it feels like there is some NEGATIVE CHARGE around them).

BLAH!!

(and I wrote 10 of these last year - what's going on here - what fear am I still facing? is it because I have a known audience here and can really receive feedback (vs blogging or writing for other online platforms with audiences behind a screen) and that's what I fear?)