WEEK 117 - POST 4
More wow, wow, wow.
I did it. I figured it out.
(Now I just have to remember this realization!)
Tuesday felt like a "sentence" - like I was stuck inside a jail cell and all I could do is self-soothe with food.
The audit writing is the worst for me (like the case studies and fact sheets were). If I can get the document open and just start working, it's OK but it's that huge first hurdle that I can't seem to get past.
And I think at this point, the loneliness is becoming a major factor also. I really like playing the "coffee shop background noise" when I'm home as it really does soothe me. Things from my childhood and young adulthood are coming up in terms of being stuck inside or "not allowed" to do anything fun until my work is done.
All that to say, I went to the coffee shop on Wednesday and had a breakthrough! Yay!!!
(and whew! the audit was very overdue and it's SO GREAT that it is done now!)
so today is another BIZ day and I'm excited! I cancelled my HSHB membership yesterday (another whew!) and I feel lighter and free of this heaviness already. I drafted an email to my accountability partner (so she knows I left HSHB) and really hope that I can close that door also. I actually don't want her to respond because then it'll be the same roller coaster ride and I just can't deal with that right now.
I need to be able to focus!!
I'll look for something simple and yet a good fit for myself this fall in terms of connecting with other entrepreneurs. I have a few ideas but we shall see what I really need (and how much I CAN do on my own first.)
OK where's that list to tackle!!
xo
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