small steps to keep moving me forward xo

WEEK 95 - POST 2

Yesterday didn't go too well.

I don't know what it is but I feel so scattered.  I feel like a thousand things need my energy and I just can't focus.  I know there were a couple of "must reach out to these friends" (because I said I would) and another few "must reach out to these people" for business (which I was too overwhelmed to do).  I'm at this crossroads and need to make a lot of changes behind the scenes but can't keep up with that and the blog posts (and keep revising my opinion about social media!) ack!  I think I'm panicking because it all feels like it needs to be done NOW.

(And it's never good to go to HSHB when I feel like this because I see all these people doing things and achieving things and I feel even more distracted (should I do that too?) or just like an underachiever (I haven't got that kind of reach yet...)

Even if I don't go there (HSHB) I do feel under the gun to "produce" - prove that "this" will work (NOW) especially as income ($$$) issues start looming. 

And if it involves other people and their "expectations" (whether imagined or real) I feel really pressured by that and almost TOO pressured where I just shut down.

But all of this is good.  I'm observing all of this.  I'm realizing it.  It's becoming more clear and less hidden.  It's not subconsciously driving me if I can bring it into the light.

UPDATE: 3 pm - OK I ignored everything and looked at two email service providers to see what would be better and how to start using them.  Whew!  very difficult day (beginner frustrations) but I did finally figure some things out and uploaded both my newsletter list and my RSS list.  whew!