Yesterday was another hard day. I really had a melt down. Everything just felt so difficult and I just didn't know if I wanted to do this anymore. I was overwhelmed looking at options for newsletter providers and felt the pressure of "all the things I have to do!!" But in the end I'm glad I'm doing the research (and I did some more this morning) as I really need to take these next BIGGER steps soon (I don't want to lose momentum and I don't want to be sidelined again in May!). But I also have to do one thing at a time.
It was nice to reach out to another solopreneur online (photographer out west) - I hope I'm not overstepping my boundaries (I offered her some thoughts on "next steps" for her) as I'm really happy that I've made that connection (all on a whim - "must get more failures under my belt!").
I've also finally found a great tracking list (of next tasks to do) that works for me. It's taken years of refinement and trying all sorts of things but I think finally this one will work (and work for me - I don't know about this being a tracking list that will work for everyone!). And I'm starting to highlight all the "NEW" things I'm doing in this list - the NEW things I'm doing to step up my game. I think highlighting these will help so that I REALIZE how much I'm handling (especially the new stuff). And then I won't be as surprised that I'm a bit overwhelmed also (and to be more gentle during the next melt down). But I was also happy how I handled the melt down - there was some resistance but I did let the emotions just flow finally. (Yay!)
Changes to my website, starting my first newsletter, learning how to make a course - all of this will to be hard but it will up-level me and I really want to GET THERE!! (I had another idea for a product this morning!! OH MY!! So excited!!) And I must say that after I calmed myself down yesterday (let those emotions flow) it was easier to start working on posts again AND I realized why I like what I'm doing so much!!! It felt good - I was in flow!! xo
Also got notification that a grant application date I am working towards got pushed back 4 days (which gives me more time if I need it - yay!!) And I'm realizing how lucky I am to go on trips so that I can add to my blog. Maybe next year I can write them off as part of the business! I also looked at the pamphlets today (when I was downtown) and thought "maybe some day mine will be here with all of these others!"
BEST THING: I received a card in the mail yesterday - thanking me for doing a presentation at a local church for my part-time job and they gave me a gift card. WOW!!! I felt so amazing!!! I was so touched!!! It was incredible to receive that card!!
Remember one day you will hear this too (saw it on someone's You Tube site - who has about 200 Patreon supporters):
I am so happy to be able to support you - No one else is doing something like this!!
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