year by year things are improving! xo

WEEK 87 - POST 4

I'm noticing again that I prioritize "people" over my own health.  "People" ends up being this long "to do" list (that never ends mind you!) and I'm always feeling like I have to get back to that person!  That I want to cross that off my to do list!  (And of course it makes me happy to tackle my to do list.)  And I feel this "expectation" from the other person (which is all internally created and not real!), so I get satisfaction from that also - not disappointing them.  UGH!

I do much better if I get up in the morning and TACKLE MY STUFF FIRST because otherwise it gets lost in this myriad of things to do and items to cross off.

It's interesting to realize that I'm still struggling with people.  Last year was a bit of a dip where I just didn't do it any more (I'm noticing that's my way of starting CHANGE - like a year and a half ago it was food and exercise - I just didn't push myself anymore and I let myself eat what I wanted.) I just turned my back on it and ignored it (for the most part).  Now I'm trying to return to it in a more healthy way but of course everyone is contact me after I sent out holiday cards and/or were in contact with them to wish them a good holiday, etc.

I NEED TO SLOW THIS DOWN.  (and ironically my partner's flu is the thing I'm using to delay getting together with people.)  YES this does interfere with my BUSINESS!  YIKES!!!

And then there is social media which was mentioned also in this post from last year.  My IG project did not work (but that's ok because I lept into it without thinking.  AND learned A LOT!  And I'm finding that I'm not using it the way I really should be to spread the message I should be spreading.  So when I'm ready to launch my first product I need to rethink how I use ALL OF IT!!

(and also how I am with it - am I using it effectively or am I wasting my time, doing something mindless?)  As I mentioned, I do think there is a better way to get my message out there with guest posts, etc.  I need to think traditional.  xo

FROM WEEK 35 (2017):

"I think that I really need to be very deliberate about people that I see and who I really feel good about spending time with.  And then completely dial back on the group things (that I organize) as there are way too unconscious expectations there for me." (LINK)