WEEK 99 - POST 5
Wow. In some ways I just don't know what to say about this week. I am definitely learning so much about myself. I think it's partly due to the fact that I'm more homebound than usual this past week. I'm stuck inside and I'm observing what is "coming up". It really clicked for me that I have this deep need to please others (to get good feedback and/or praise). And it's this constant seeking of praise (even numbers from social media) that drives where I put my energy - what tasks get done.
This is why part-time work gets prioritized over the BIZ. I always thought it was the $$$ but now I realize that it's more than that. It could partly be, yes, the $$$ and my fear of failure if I don't have $$$ but it's also "not letting others down". UGH.
But I'm always letting myself down if I don't move this BIZ forward.
After meeting with my part-time mentor/boss, all I wanted to do yesterday afternoon was more of the part-time stuff. Nothing else held any weight. I couldn't muster any interest.
It's Friday.
I know I have time for my BIZ so let's see what gets done today.
xo
End of day: got some small stuff done: some editing of posts, plus some clean up (which felt good!) but this unproductive week means I must work on the weekend. Need to figure out how to "protect" my weekends. xo
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