my reoccurring theme of "not being seen"

WEEK 89 - POST 2

This week has taken a nose dive (from previous weeks).

Where a few weeks ago I felt seen and ready to step further into the light, now things seem to be quite the challenge and I can see my "credit" in the universe slipping.

I'm trying to work at the inner issues - gently and lovingly shifting core beliefs (more personal than biz related) but I know it's going to take time (and some huge vulnerability if I'm willing - not so sure right now).  And just now, when I write "vulnerability", I realize that this probably IS part of the key for the biz too.  (Yikes!) Because when you share more of your truth then you can connect to those who identify with your truth.

boom.

But back to my "not being seen" story: I just opened up my Biz Bank Account today - yay!!

So I posted online at HSHBBiz (I never know what to share but I do want to participate so I was looking forward to sharing this with others) but my post got hijacked by someone else (not their fault) and ended up being a conversation between one of the group leaders and another member (about THEIR business and not MINE).  UGH!!

So I totally felt like I WAS NOT SEEN today.  DOUBLE UGH.

(Goes to show you - when you DON'T care - things happen (like at GFCirc) and when you DO care - it goes complete AWRY!  TRIPLE UGH)

anyhoooo.... I do see how this is all about UPLEVELING.  Why I'm having this push and pull just as I'm ready to be SEEN more.

I had a really good cry both Monday am and Tuesday am (when I woke up early, with my fears gnawing at my thoughts and I could not get back to sleep).  I do feel like I was able to get some clarity this morning on these deep core beliefs so hopefully I'll be able to come back into the light soon.

xo