figuring it out with compassion, kindness and understanding (allow, accept xo)

WEEK 91 - POST 4

I must say I'm distracted this week because I have to work on the weekend and get prepped for that and there's an event coming up that I have to shop for and I'm juggling friends, etc. but really it sounds just like a normal week.  There are some things I want to include in my regular routine (exercise, healthy meals, getting outside, going to a coffee shop) but some bad habits keep deterring my plans.  It happens sometimes but it feels like it can only be one thing - I'm really having a hard time juggling.  So if it's "get out today" that happens but other things slide (meal, exercise) or if it's "focus on the blog" then I don't get out of my chair.

I have to really start accepting that there are only so many hours in the day!  I did an amazing job yesterday working on the three blog posts but what I did last night (rather than rest, relax and reboot) was to go back to my desk.  I sorted through my to do lists and consolidate a bit - which was good (but maybe not good because I should have closed the door on my biz at 5 pm) and then stare at my blog post idea list and try to figure out a strategy to keep going.  I think the later was just a waste of my time in that there was no action - I was just "wishing I could do more".  And really neither should have been part of my evening.  UGH.

I DID AN AMAZING JOB YESTERDAY!  What IS this about MORE????

I think I feel bad because I have some very low production days and then when I have one good one, I want to figure out the secret and optimize and dissect it.  But what if it just IS and I need to give it space to allow it to happen again. What if I allowed myself to flow more in my downtime too and just relish it and enjoy it and get the most out of it.  I think I'm doing both half-assed and that's why NOTHING really happens.  But then I feel bad that I only get X done in one day and I feel like I should do some at night also.  I should WORK REALLY HARD or I'm not going to get ahead!

This is all really good to be aware of.  I'm glad that I'm bringing awareness to all of this.  I know things are changing and that it's time for me.  It's time to step up and do this!!

OK it's 9 am now.  I MUST get some stuff done with the part-time job.

Then a walk today and then a short webinar at 1 pm and then let's work on my biz for the afternoon.

If it all goes well let's make plans for a coffee shop tomorrow!!

Let's do this thing girl - I hope you have a great day too!!

xo